one thousand three hundred thirty nine days

It's been 3 years and 8 months since my first date with my partner in a local coffee shop. 1339 days since we met.

Yesterday we embarked on our most adventurous date--we went skydiving together.

It was incredible and delightful and surreal and extra special because we did it together.

It is the grandest adventure we will have before he moves back to India in 12 days. Twelve. The swimming pool of my emotional & mental state is full to the brim and frequently spilling over.

And yet somehow on that tiny propeller plane, flying way higher up into the sky than it seems it should have any business doing, I was much calmer than I could have expected. I was with him and we were sharing something amazing.

I don't know what the next chapters hold. I can only hope we'll make a way to write more adventures together.

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